Love Thy Neighbor
Although I’m very new to Kaballah, I would definitely consider myself a student of it. I’m fasinated by the ancient practice that explains spirituality as a technology for living. Everything I have read so far about Kabbalah falls in line with my fuzzy beliefs about the universe and about God. What’s even better is that the ideas of Kabbalah apply to all religions and belief systems. Instead of putting spirituality and science at odds with eachother, it unifies them. Basically, Kabbalah is teaching me the power of being proactive and fighting my reactive urges. Kabbalah is teaching me to be a better person.
The most basic belief in Kabbalah is to “love thy neighbor as thyself.” A beautiful idea that is played out in the bible, in the Big Book, and in life.
Tags:none Filed under general, recovery, spirituality | Comment (0)Goodbye, Ginnie…with Love.
My grandma died in her sleep last night. I called her Ginnie and the kids called her GGG - Great Grandma Ginnie. She is…was…my (step) dad’s mom. It was unexpected and I am extremely sad. My mom lost my grandpa last year and now my dad has lost his mom. Now, I’m waiting for my son to get off the bus…how do I explain to him that he’s lost another great-grandparent? Abby is named Abigail Virginia after Ginnie.
I’ve been sober for 37 days. I’m so sad. And I’m worried about everyone leaving me here alone. I’m so selfish. Why is fear such a big part of this whole thing?
Tags:none Filed under family, general, spirituality | Comment (0)Day 36: Today I’m Grateful
Today, I will be sober for 36 days. Even when I didn’t think I was “problem drinking,” I can’t imagine that I ever went this long without having some kind of drink at sometime. I mean, there’s always a birthday or holiday in my family…or, even just dropping by Wyatt’s while I waited for Max’s karate class to be over.
Yesterday was kind of a goofy day in group. We had some good discussions about the fear of relapse. It’s a good group of people. Several in my group are nurses….interesting.
Last night we didn’t have enough time to make it to the hospital to see Bill, but we did get to the NA meeting at Genesis. It was a good meeting - good shares, good people, good energy. There had been a big “in your face” argument after last week’s meeting so I was afraid it might be kind of awkward. Instead, it was awesome. Both men spoke and apologized and it was really, really cool. Tough addicts (in recovery), tough men sharing their feelings and owning up to their mistakes. It’s amazing to me what these programs can do for people.
I have to say that today I feel grateful and thankful for the path my life is taking. With my HPs strength and some hard work on my part, I think that I might actually find my purpose and do something constructive with my life. It’s such a relief not to be drowning in my own fear, self loathing, and failure. For once, I don’t feel overwhelmed. I know I have a lot to do, but I can handle it…without drinking.
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I received the following email from the Kabbalah Centre today:
This is a reply to your request for a personal 72 name that you made on www.72.com website.
According to your time of birth, May 6, 1969, your personal name from “The 72 Names of God” book is:
ALEPH LAMED DALET (#10) — LOOKS CAN KILL — PROTECTION FROM THE EVIL EYE. A shield of positive energy surrounds you, offering protection from the negative glances, looks of envy, and mean spirited intentions of others.
A full description of the name can be found on page 68 of “The 72 Names of God” book.
All the best,
Kabbalah Centre International
1 (800) KABBALAH
www.72.com
I was pretty excited by this since this is the same name of God used with the red bracelet, which I received yesterday.
Tags:none Filed under spirituality | Comments (6)Day 35
Today is Tuesday…that means NA tonight. However, Jeff’s taking S and I to RVMC first to leave some flowers and cards for one of our favorite counselors who is pretty ill. I don’t think B wants visitors right now (I’m not sure if he recognizing anyone, anyway), but I just want to let him and his family know how much he’s loved. I truly believe he’s one of those angels on earth that found his purpose and actually acted on it. He has a gift for relating information in a way that’s empathetic AND digestable. He’s made a huge impact on everyone that came in contact with him. He touched my heart and gave me such hope when I went into Genesis. I’m going to pray like crazy for him.
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