New Beginnings

Dear Brothers and Sisters Still Suffering,

Your surgery changed everything for you. Aside from some minor pains and setbacks here and there, you were doing fabulously: losing weight like gangbusters, having energy to burn, and feeling like someone that mattered again. That’s how I felt, too. I was even blessed with a beautiful new baby. But somewhere along the way, something else happened. Something sneaky, brutal and completely unexpected. Somehow, alcohol felt and tasted different. And then, almost suddenly, I couldn’t stop at one glass of wine…or even one bottle. And you can’t either, can you?

Please don’t take this the wrong way or think that I don’t love you, because I do. I love you with my whole heart. The truth is that you are now an alcoholic. Plain and simple. There is no going back. You must stop drinking now and get help. Do not pass go. Do not make any more excuses or cry about how unfair it is.  Do not stomp your foot like a child and tell me that AA won’t work for you. I don’t give a shit which program you choose, just choose one that includes participation in groups. The healing power of a fellowship is immeasurable. If you don’t stop this downward spiral right now you might destroy everything you have and everyone you love in the destructive ripple effect that is alcohol.

I have to be honest here. I want you to know that the path back is not always easy. It’s hard. But it does get better. A lot better. It sucks dealing with all the pain you’re feeling right now, but that horrid, overwhelming sense of doom will eventually go away. Honest. Your soul will return to your eyes and you will be accountable for the things you do and say. Life will start again. If you choose to put down the drink and try another way…if you want to live, then you will do anything to get your life back won’t you? So do it.

Put your hand in my hand and we’ll do this together.

With Love,
Rusty

For more information, my story, and links to articles and programs, please see my original post on this topic.

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