The edge
I feel very on edge today. I hesitate to even blog about it because I don’t particularly care to have my whining and negativity be a part of public permanent record. When I feel myself becoming irritated easily and drifting away from authenticity towards the fake “every thing’s cool” me, then I know it’s time for a little self evaluation and honest introspection. What’s really bugging me and what’s my part in it? Instead of actually sitting here and venting about all the little things that are annoying me, I think I will use the time to take my own inventory (a novel idea!) and not the inventory of the 2 guys I work with that I find so effing annoying right now. I’ll try not to dwell on the unsettling phone conversation I had with my fence sitting friend, CT, last night. I will try to look inside for real answers and solutions, do a little book study and mediation, and try to have a positive attitude.
Ack. I can’t wait until my meeting tomorrow morning and a nice late breakfast with my sponsor. I definitely could use some conversation with a friend/mentor with longterm sobriety.
(this picture was taken by me at the Grand Canyon a few days after Sept. 11, 2001)
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