Cycles
December 19th, 2006
I’m having a hard time keeping up with my blog (duh). I’m struggling a bit and just have such a hard time articulating how I feel. It’s so much easier to just smile and say every thing’s fine…and hope that no one catches me pushing everything under the carpet. I’m not really afraid that I’ll drink. I’m just afraid that what’s wrong with me can’t be fixed…what if I’m one of the hopeless few that are incapable of being honest? Maybe it’s just part of my mood cycle. Maybe it’s the holidays and the memory of what an ass I made of myself the last year before I went to treatment. Maybe it’s just easier to feel sorry for myself and be miserable than deal with reality. Who knows.
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