Internal Conflict
The hardest thing about being me is all the ugly resentments and imagined slights I have swirling around in my head and my gut. Because I choose to use my real name on this blog and because some of the players in my real life may occassionally visit here, I am slightly limited in what I can say and spew. Maybe that’s good, maybe it’s not. Obviously, we should always be careful what we say/write as it ends up on some blogspere permanent record that we can’t edit or “take back.” Sometimes, though, I just need to vent and I thought this would be my forum. Now, I just don’t feel comfortable doing it.
For instance, I live and work on the same property with my parents. Sort of makes it difficult to say pretty much anything about work or home-related issues. Need I say more? Actually, I have so much more I need to get out and write about…things about work, things about family life, things about me. I guess I should do that in my journal, huh?
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Any time you want to name names and/or specify outrages, you can borrow my blog! I’ve managed to keep mine pretty furtive.
Never, ever let JJ borrow your blog, cuz she’ll throw a party and trash the place.
Re: your post from Nov. 30, about not calling your sponsor, stalling on Step 4, etc. Now that I’m an oldtimer of almost a year, I’ve decided to start telling newcomers How To Do It. And all I can come up with is, whatever you do, don’t do what I do. To your list, I can add 3-4 weeks without a meeting a couple times, being unreliable in commitments… Good thing my recovery is a gift of grace rather than a goal I achieve!
You can borrow my Blog too and bitch all you want.
You can be in whatever you want..
I have a journal too, just for stuff like that. I don’t use my real name, but my wife reads my blog, and that’s ok. There are just some things that we would rather not put on the ‘Net. A private journal is a good thing!